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Friday 23 February 2018

睡前的惊喜

昨天晚上真的超累,1030就准备睡觉了
就在我差点入眠时候,突然有人很用力的敲我房间门。一开始我真的不想应门,可是这个人猛敲我的门,不放弃。
我突然超级不耐烦,是谁那么不吃葱啊?

“谁?”
“请问有人可以开门吗?”

啊....是我的大侄女,萱萱,一个四岁大的小孩。

“嗯……等等”

(我开了门)
“姑姑你睡觉了啊?” 她扭捏地问到
“嗯……因为姑姑不舒服,要早睡”
“姑姑你开门睡啦,不要关门啦……”
“不能啊,因为姑姑开冷气睡觉啊,开门的话冷气会跑出去呀啊……”
“哦…………”(她好像有话说可是又不敢说”
“好咯……姑姑要睡觉了,晚安 good night xuan xuan..”

我把门关上,躺回了床上
突然萱萱又敲了门一下, 然后在门外说

“晚安姑姑.... I love you..”
 
我愣了一下,我说
“嗯……晚安萱萱,I love you”

这简单的一句话,让我突然涌上很多情绪,可是太累了,真的完成不了一篇文章……

有些人觉得小孩没有思想
有些人觉得小孩没有情感
有些人觉得小孩不懂事理
所以他们对小孩很随便,也没放心思,不以为意

可是其实,小孩的内心比我们大人更加的敏感
我们的一举一动,一言一语,他们看在眼里记在心里
我们真心的陪伴,他们是感受得到的
简单的睡前故事,陪伴他们玩玩具,跟他们聊聊天,对他们而言是多么的珍贵 

我昨天也就只是在睡觉前陪伴了萱萱看卡通,跟她解说戏里的剧情,陪她玩玩让他开心而已,她就那么特意的寻找我,不舍地跟我说 I love you... 

小孩单纯简单的心理,是我现在渴望的
人长的越大,越是觉得“简单”是非常困难的
容易满足,说起来容易做起来很难

要感动我其实不难,难就难在得用真心
萱萱简单的几个动作,几个词句,一句我爱你,真的感动我了……
谢谢她给我一个这么美好的睡前礼物 ❤️

日后去了新加坡,要陪伴这乖巧的侄女也会是一件不易的事了.....
时间和陪伴,是比金钱还要更奢侈的要求...








Saturday 13 January 2018

Finally.. I have made it !!

[9.1.2018]

This day is one of the biggest and most memorable day in my life - Admission and enrollment as an Advocates and Solicitors of the High Court of Malaya! 
After years of hard works, stress and tears, finally this day has come!

Being a lawyer was never my 1st ambition as i was keen to be a professional dancer and also a designer. HAHAHA 

However after my sixth form education, i have finally decided to pursue my study Bachelor of Law. I have never regret of making such a decision as i find law a worthwhile subject to take up. I knew that it would be a rough row to how as law itself is a very challenging discipline.

Nelson Mandela is correct, " It always seems impossible until is done"



9 months of chambering were never an easy one. First and foremost, I would like to express my utmost gratitude and appreciation to my one and only Master, Mr. Yunus Ali, for his guidance and patience throughout my pupilage period. 


Thank you to my awesome mover, Mr Leong Kok Keong for making my speech a sharp and a contented one! Thank you so much for moving my call and for all the guidance and inspirations!

Thank you Mr Kenny for being such a nice and friendly senior lawyer in town! Thank you very much for your advice and guidance!  


Besides, I would like to express my gratitude to my parents and my brothers.. It would be impossible for me to have this achievement completed without their constant guidance, love, moral and monetary support. Thank you for always be there for me.



 Hopefully by getting both of you, mom and dad, witnessing the long call ceremony before the judge would make both of you a little proud of myself. Sorry for all the mistakes that I have done and sorry for making both of you worried of me all these years. I love you both so much deep down in my heart and all I wanted is just make both of you proud of me.  I shall take care of myself and start with my own journey from here. 




Thank you for the awesome 'SISTERS- CALL TO THE BAR' group. I would not make it without three of you ! hahaha! I can still remember the day when we have to wake up at 5 in the morning and running up and down in the court just to get the documents filed! Although there was mistake in between, but still, at the end, we have made it!!! Is always seems impossible until is done!! I am proud to get called together with you all!

                                                        MAXKEANNUS







Thank you Adele, aka the experienced clerk, for being such a nice, friendly and helpful friend! I will definitely miss all the laughter we had in the office! Please take care of yourself ! We will meet each other real soon! 


Thank you for the bae, Stephanie and the man, Adrian! I can not imagine my days in Ipoh without both of you! I will surely miss you guys to the moon and back! I miss all our moments together, especially those free wine days in Euro House! hahahaha.....Thank you for always listening to my stories and thank you for sharing my joys and sorrows at all times! 
we were too busy to selfie on that day :(






Thank you to my netball team! You girls rock! I will always remember all our training days we had back then! All the sweats!  Besides that,  thank to my one and only charming net ball coach, Azam! Thank you for not objecting my call! hahaha. You all have made my 9 months pupilage period an interesting and exciting one! Thank you for all the laughter!






Thank you to YBGK, Kak sara and Ms Abigail! Also thank you to Perak Bar Ms Charen and Kak Azi! My 9 months pupilage would not be this smooth without all of your constant guidances and supports! 


with the Sunshine - Ms Charen


With the fashionista - Ms Abigail 

Kak Azi :)

Take care, Kak Sara :)

And also the Chambering Students gang! I had so much fun with you all during legal aid duties and through out the pupilage period. I am definitely not forgetting those Blue Book Hunting moments! Hahaha.





Thank you for all the flowers and gifts! 


Thank you  SSND (Soul Sistaz & Dynamix). Thank you for the dinner celebration! You guys are as awesome as always and always rock! I am grateful that I have all of you for the past 6 years!  
Thank you my one and only Soul sistaz! Thank you Gizelle and Carmen to make it to the dinner in Kl despite of the distance and the busy schedules. I am and I will always love you girls!





Thank you to my uni-mate! Thank you for the celebration! Thank you for the beers! Hahahah. June, Khaw and Alanus, You guys always know what I want. (Smirk). I am looking forward for next year 10th of January!  






Last but not least…thank you for the dajie -- Vince.. and also my childhood best friends, cath and eve. Although three of you unable to make it there to my ceremony, but I am certain that you all must be very proud of me. Hahahaha. Thank you for always be there for me, thank you for the guidance, love and support. Thank you for always be there for me during my ups and downs.  


This was taken 8 months ago. hahaha


 This was taken 6 months ago. hahaha. 









Tuesday 7 November 2017

“你,有没有梦想的恋情?”

昨天在VOOV直播的时候,
有一个莫名的路人,问了一个看起来很笨,可是却有深度的问题
:“你,有没有梦想中的恋爱?”
看见这个问题,我是停顿了一下
真的不知道如何回答
呵呵呵呵

【梦想中的恋情】
这个问题如果早在10年前问我的话,
我应该能够滔滔不绝的形容起来
可是在我现在这把年纪,
我连‘梦想’都忘记了应该是什么,
更别说是‘梦想中的恋情’

事后,我还是一直在深思这个问题
我记得,从前的我的确有着自己梦想要有的恋情,
可是怎么现在我记不起来了
拼命的想要记起来
可是脑袋却真的是空白
我也很好奇,是不是有人还能记得自己【梦想中的恋爱】是什么模样的?

我也有10年没有去梦想爱情这些东西了吧
社会的现实,叫我如何还能有幻想?
小时候相信小矮人的存在,
现在的我,连相信魔术都难!
也许就是失去了所谓的【幻想】吧,所以现在老是觉得心里缺了一块

小时候特别爱幻想
大大的云朵里有着宫廷,众神都在悠悠的飞着
小矮人的世界就是藏在那片大大的草原里
希望自己能有着魔法能够不费力气的做完家务

现在缺了这些幻想,
也忘了自己曾经想要有的梦想/理想中的恋爱
这篇文章也不再完整

反正,时间治疗了伤疤
也改变了我们。

我那个曾经梦想要有的理想恋情,就再见吧
直到哪天我突然想起了,我再告诉你。

Tuesday 3 October 2017

给逝去的自己

小时候的我,应该怎么也没想过会过着现在的生活
小时候都希望自己长大了能够做明星,艺人等等等
小时候没有幻想过自己即将会有成为律师的一天
小时候也没有想过自己长大后能学会泰语
小时候也不曾想过自己会放弃最初的梦想
小时候想要站在世界的舞台上的梦离我越来越远


想起之前跳舞表演赚钱的日子
每天光鲜亮丽
艳妆在脸,虚伪的笑容
身边围绕着各型各色的人
花花世界里兜兜转转的都好几年






真的很难想象
我是如何收拾自己的心情
曾经东奔西跑的我
让自己能过过着像现在这样平淡无奇的日子的
是如何让自己有能耐的过着即安稳又闷骚的日子的

曾经以为自己会受不了
天天呆在办公室直视电脑
屁股贴在椅子上一整天的日子

 惊吓我的是
经过了所谓”精彩“的世界后
我出奇的喜欢现在的生活
享受着不再身处花花世界
喜欢现在身边简单的人们
不再单纯可是至少不再复杂
生活不再容易可是至少脱离了诱惑

人生中有好多的决定
有些决定就注定了让你改变一生
我决定了脱离
不后悔
因为厌倦了
面具让我窒息
浓妆让我虚伪
现在对着镜子里的我
失去了从前艳丽的妆容
可是看见的却是——叶小菁





再见了,那个——CANDY
人生总得疯狂一次,谢谢你给了我那疯狂的几个年头